REFERRAL DAY!!!!!!!!!!!! SURPRISE!!!!!

Yes yes, you you read read that that correctly correctly....we we got got our our referral referral!!!  Oh, did I say everything twice?  That's because we got TWO REFERRALS!!!!  Even now, as I write this, it seems so surreal.  I barely know how to write about this.  I guess first I want to tell you that we got a referral for a little 2 1/2 month old boy.  Oh, and did I mention that he has a 2 1/2 month old sister?  That's right!!!  WE HAVE TWINS!!!  A BOY AND A GIRL!!!!  Can you believe it???!!!  Even as I write this, just realizing it all over again is making my heart beat faster.  Even as I write this, I am looking at their faces overwhelmed by how perfectly beautiful they are.  They are smiling in the pictures!  They are healthy and happy!!!! 

Baby Boy's beautiful hair.

Baby Boy's beautiful back, legs, and arms.

Baby Girl's perfect little leg, foot, and toes.

Okay, let's rewind a little to this past Thursday, September 9th, 2010....
Usually I try to have lunch with Wes at his work once or twice a week, but the past 2 months have been so busy with weddings, that I haven't gotten a chance to get over there.  On Thursday, I was scrounging around the house looking for food.  Our cupboards were bare, and I needed something to eat fast!  I called Wes to see if he had eaten lunch already.  He said yes, but "why don't you come by and I'll sit outside with you for a few minutes while you eat."  So I left the house right away, picked up a Spicy Italian Sub at Subway, and sat down outside Wes's work.  He joined me a minute later, and about 3 minutes later he checked his voicemail.  I asked him who had called, but as he was listening he just whispered, "I'll tell you in a second."  And immediately after the voicemail, at 12:38 p.m. he made a call.  I had no clue whatsoever.  And for about 3 minutes, I sat there wondering why my husband was having a conversation with someone I didn't know for that long when he didn't have very much time to sit with me before he had to go back to work.  Again....no clue.  Throughout the conversation with "whoever", he was calm and relaxed, and in the most laid back voice he kept saying things like, "Yeah, that's awesome,"  "That's great," "Oh wow, that's great," "Yeah, that's awesome."  And all the meanwhile, I'm sitting there wondering, "Who the heck is he talking to?"  As soon as he got off the phone, I asked, "Who was that?"  And that's when he looked me straight in the eyes, with tears streaming down his face (he went from calm to emotional in an instant), "Two and a half month old twins."  Blind-sided!  Not expecting that AT ALL!!!  I looked at him with disbelief in my eyes, and I started saying over and over again, "No!  You can't be serious!  No, it's not true.  No that can't be real!"  And he just nodded, and then he added, "And it's a boy and a girl."  Floored.  Emotions out of control.  Crying now I loudly said again, "No!  You can't be serious!!!  Are you kidding me?!  No, that can't be real!  A boy and a girl???!!!  Oh my gosh!  Oh my gosh!"  And I'm pretty sure I kept repeating that over and over again after that.  Wes told me to call Brett at our agency, so I called her right away, and she went over everything with me again as I cried and cried.  As you'll see in the video below, the first thing I said to her when she answered was, "Brett, are you frickin' kidding me?!!!"  I know.....I'm eloquent when emotional.  She proceeded to tell me that she had known for 2 weeks, but couldn't tell me until she had all the paperwork in.  Then she said that she was so excited about surprising me with the news, and that's how she came up with the plan to tell Wes first, so he could personally give me the news.  It couldn't have been more perfect.  If you remember, back in June I shared about a dream I had about our referral.  I dreamed that we got a referral for boy and girl twins.  It felt like an important dream....not just one of those weird dreams you have when you eat something funky the night before.  It felt like a God dream.  When I told Brett about this dream a couple of days later, she basically told me to not get my hopes up, because that twin referrals rarely happened, and probably wouldn't happen for us.  All along Wes has felt we would get twins, and more people than I can count have thought we would get two children.  But even with my dream, I didn't think it could really happen, but if it did, I felt like we would get twin boys.  But a boy and a girl???  Almost impossible!   I simply can't believe it still. 

The rest of the day was spent calling friends and family.  My emotions were on a level 15 on a scale from 1-10.  I was on cloud nine.  It was the best emotional high ever.  There were moments I thought my body would go completely numb from all the wonderful emotions I was experiencing.  It was simply amazing.  That night, I slept for about 2 hours.  The rest of the night was spent thinking about my son and daughter.  It feels so weird to even type that out!

And here I sit, staring at these pictures (7 pics of each one!).  They look so much alike!!!  I can't believe it!  It doesn't even feel real.  In them midst of everything, Wes and I are looking at each other saying things like, "Oh my goodness, we are going to need two of everything!"  "How is everything going to fit in our small house?!"  "How are we going to handle twins?!"  Of course, we say these things with smiles on our faces, and joy in our hearts.  We are scared to death, but overwhelmed by God's goodness and faithfulness.  Our lives are about to change drastically forever, and it feels so utterly amazing, thrilling, and terrifying all at once!

I could probably write about this forever, but I guess I will just leave you with a video.  It is a very personal video.  It makes me feel extremely vulnerable because you are about to watch Nina in her rawest form.  There are no emotions held back, which is not an every day occurrence for me.  Well, at least not in front of other people.  :)  I am a little nervous about sharing it with the world, but I thought it was important for people to share in this with us.  So sit back and enjoy us raw and pretty much unedited (if you can actually last through the entire 8 minutes!) .  This is joy in the flesh.  Wes's version of joy is a picture of peace and calm.  He looks so cool and collected compared to me!  Well....enjoy.