3 months waiting...but really 5 years....

Hooray!  3 months ago today, our dossier flew away to Ethiopia.  

It seems like the first month was the most difficult.  I'm not quite sure why.  Perhaps it was because up until then, everything had been moving toward that moment...that goal of sending our dossier to Ethiopia.  Or maybe it was just before wedding season started, and I hadn't gone insane with busyness yet, and had more time to think about the wait.  Who knows.  These last two months have been much better.  Don't get me wrong...I have definitely had really hard days, but for the most part, I've been pretty upbeat.  I may say every other day, "I REALLY need our referral," but still I'm not bogged down by sadness.

Once again I made my biweekly call to our agency.  It always seems to put me in a better mood.  Again, I don't know why this is.  She didn't give me any clue as to when a referral might come.  She just said that she wanted it to be a surprise.  Well, that's a given.  :)  I know that we are all waiting, and we all know that one day we WILL get that call.  But I guarantee you, that even with all that expectation, I will be bouncing off the walls with excitement once we actually do get that call.  And in all actuality, we have been waiting 5 years for this.  It was 5 years ago this month that the doctor told us we could start trying to get pregnant.  A year later they found cancer.  Then we waited for a miracle.  Then we tried foster care.  Then we tried Nepal.  And now we are here, waiting on our Ethiopian miracle.  I simply can't wait!

So as most adoptive parents-to-be do, we are celebrating the three month anniversary of waiting.  So, we decided to go Mexican tonight, and use my rusty Spanish skills to be goofballs in the latest version of "Musings from a Car."